No longer green with envy
I left my home in the valley
& travelled a world beyond any
My family had ever known
& so the prodigal upon return
Seeks comfort in familiar truths
The cracked seeds of possibility
Littering the ground around his feet
& I was no different no wiser
No saner no longer able to hold my own
The terror of losing everything in the world
Except this place to return to
This place of soft emerald shadows
& the limbs of a grove still waiting
II. Fig (Shadows)
It was a little like a doll's house &—for
California—remarkably ancient that clapboard
Shack of a farmhouse & in the tiny upstairs
Bedroom where my two-year-old son slept
I could open the one window onto the second
Story limbs of the fig tree which each spring
Would release its branches all the way
Into the room the magical green & violet fruit
Bobbing above my son's head & the shadows
Of the leaves rippling like river light along the walls
& some days I'd pull up a chair beside the window
Wiping off the stiff skins & slicing with my
Fingernail the fat eggs of fig as the ruby pulp
Pulsed from its swollen lips
