In knee guards, wrist guards, elbow guards, and helmet,
my son could be some pre-teen Greek
ready to grab lance and shield, and show
those pre-teen Trojans who's who and what's where.
On his board, though, he's all lurches and jerks.
He stands too straight, leans the wrong way, and won't
bend his knees, despite my sideline disquisitions
on natural shock absorbers and center of gravity.
Too often he jumps off his board,
or loses momentum and slides feebly back into the pit.
He's only skateboarded three months. Still, I'd be blind
not to see that several boys and one girl skate
with more grace, zest, and verve—skate
as naturally as fish swim—whereas he's a gutsy
water-phobe in water-wings. He thinks too much
to dissolve into pure speed. The jabs of "I might
fall," "I'll look bad," "It'll hurt," punch
through his guard, bloodying his nose,
ringing his chimes. Worse—his problems are mine:
the "nerves" that gripped my diaphragm like guy wires
when my voice needed to soar; the fear of choking
that shoved me off the mound in spite of my "great
arm." (Two coaches used those words!)
I own a tape of my dad conquering Christmas Bach
("He could have sung opera," the church-ladies said)
until one passage where, like a pole-vaulter at lift-
off, he hesitates. "Uh, oh," I hear him think,
and lose, for one instant, the melodic thread.
It's as if parents keep throwing out the same hideous hat
their kids keep dragging from the trash . . .
My son flails past—waving, or trying not to crash?—
followed by the Mohawked thug who, last week,
yelled at him, "Dickweed! You made me fall!"
"He blames you for his lack of skill,"
I pronounced, playing Wise Dad. So now the thug
is shredding—leaps, flips, slides, grinds, ollies: master
of these curved, skin-lacerating concrete sides.
When he blasts by again, he yells something
at me?—that sounds, in the Doppler-wind of his passing,
like "Nice hat!"
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Issue 60
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Editor's Note
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Poetry
- Dara Barnat
- Jason Barry
- Robin Chapman
- Geraldine Connolly
- Matt Daly
- Elizabeth Burke
- Liz Dolan
- Thomas Dooley
- Lisa Hiton
- John McKernan
- Dave Nielsen
- Sheila Joy Packa
- Jack Powers
- Brook J. Sadler
- Amy Small-McKinney
- Danez Smith
- Karen Steinmetz
- John Tangney
- Ryan Teitman
- Davide Trame
- G.C. Waldrep
- Sarah Wangler
- Charles Harper Webb
- Mary-Sherman Willis
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Fiction